Mystery

Published on 12 May 2025 at 14:45

. . on the breeze

some golden tea and a fresh croissant, some melon and strawberries and reading the end of 'problem in pollensa' by agatha christie begins the day.  i enjoy the sparrow song in the courtyard and the rare warmth that has come to here in chilly scotland- though not without some reminder of her icy antics :- her brusque and sudden blasts that blow in with an awkwardness that ruffles you all up in a mess of hair and papers and blankets blowing everywhere . .

lately I have had a malaise, and some effects of a broken engagement. not a formal engagement such as to wedlock, but like how the cold interrupts the peace of the engagement of a warm day.  like how connection is lost or unable to be established.  like how some delightful ambiences, that though profound and sublime, are fated to catch a cold too soon and blow all the sweetness of the engagement of the warmth away!  such encounters feel like loss; and as an agatha christie character noted, such a loss in the heart can feel like a deep loneliness;  it leaves one in a suspension . . and aware of a happening that seems inevitable and unavoidable . . and irrevocable .

. . on the kitchen counter

the sea shells take center stage as I eat the continental breakfast;  and beside my tea cup and croissant i browse these elements of the senses on the old phone - words and images and sounds that come that feel embracing, similar to how it feels when someone 'gets you' in a moment with no words, or when a few words of a poem seem to recognize your secret.  it is also like how the curving hedge will give me its shelter this morning when I go outside, against the mundane, so that the blue and the birdsong of sky, can again come in close, and be experienced as close again .

the morning brought images of grass and an old french song, (parlez-moi d'amour) and words from another author's blog about that song and the meaning of the french words gentillesse and noblesse du coeur that whsiper some loving-warmth to the mystery.  

“Parlez-moi d’amour” embodies the French concept of gentillesse, a term that is usually translated into English as “kindness.” But as the novelist Patrick Modiano has noted, this type of kindness is rooted in what he calls une noblesse du cœur, a nobility of spirit. And it’s just this sense of an affection that is elevated by its own intensity into a spiritual as well as a physical longing that makes the song, to my mind, a perfect expression of romantic desire."